Sunday, February 24, 2013

Post 1 - Day 55

"If you are happy and you know it clap your hands". An old song I learned in church when I was young, back when the earth was cooling. I use that phrase all the time, mostly because I feel old. That is why I love that T Rex post that I have as my profile picture. I saw it over a year ago and immediately thought of myself. I want to clap. I really, really want to clap, but my arms just will not. They are not short like the T Rex's, they just refuse for some reason. I try to make them. I try so hard, yet they refuse. They have refused my entire life and it is time to find out why - or retrain my arms.

I have been told (by my uncle) that PMA is the only way. Positive Mental Attitude. The Declaration of Independence also states that happiness is a 'pursuit'. A pursuit - it means it is not guaranteed - that we must go after it. All the same idea, just different words by different men.

I decided that my 2013 resolution would be to pursue happiness. I decided I would blog it to make myself accountable. I decided that January 1st. It is now Feb 24th. I am a procrastinator and I like to blame that and everything on my unhappiness. But that is crazy town. I am a procrastinator because life has not turned out like I thought so my mind is clouded and it refuses to see all the good things I have. What a ridiculous excuse. I have more than most and I need to be happy AND thankful and that is a decision, not a way of life.

So for 2013 I decide to be happy. No matter what happens at work, no matter what happens in life outside of work, no matter what my mind tries to tell me, no matter what the world tries to tell me. I will not win this fight every day - I lost my sh-- last week at work, but I have to at least try. I have to forgive when I fail (like starting this blog almost 2 months late) and rejoice when I win.

Want to join me in my journey?